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wRamblings of a Giggling Baka |
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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Saturday, March 29, 2003 |
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Ramble Topic One: Nate
::sighs:: Idealy for a teen the max for dating one person would be one year and a half at a time...18 months...I've been with Nate for nine months. Never would I dare hurt him ever. He's to dear to me...as a friend and as something more. Yeah, they say you can't be in love when you're this young but...what about those funny feelings I get when I see him? When I feel alive when I talk to him? How I can just pour out my soul to him?? What about that?! Tell you 'all knowing' adults! Tell me what that means! Is it just some stupid teen feelings? Something made up in my mind!? What is it!? If you know all then what is it!
Yeah...they don't know...no one knows what it is until you've lost it...but if I lose it...can I still find it again? I mean ::bites her lip:: If we broke up would Nate ever go out with me agian? Would he want to...Would I want to? ::sighs:: Damn these facts of reality! He's one of the greatest things that have ever happened to me! He's such a great and awesome person! One of my closest, and dearest friends! I would never, ever hurt him! Not in a million years!
But...what if it was for the best? That we broke up and explored new areas...::shudders:: I don't think I could do that...not yet...maybe when I mature more...like when school starts again next year or later then that... I would never ever leave him for another guy. He's...just to kind and dear to me to do that. It would be mean and cruel. I truthfully don't think he would leave for that reason. No...the reasons would be deeper then that...I know him...they would be deeper...
I love him. Just as I love my friends, I love him. I hold him dear in my heart....I haven't been able to tell him my thoughts about this...I don't want to upset him...to set false feelings into him...I'm scared of this, it shakes me up. I mean...I'm close to tears but this needs to be written and thought of and said...
I know he reads this...I don't know what he'll think...I'll never know if he doesn't me...but I guess that's all right. I just want him happy. I would do anything for him to be happy. He deserves it. He has such a wonderful soul and heart. So good and clean. It's...just a beautiful thing.
Then people dampen it at his school....how I want to kill them for hurting him and his friends! They dare mess with people I hold in my heart! I may not know Nate's friends but if Nate cares for them, then so do I. Appartently they are good people. Nate knows how to find the good people.
::dreamy sigh:: He's just so...wonderful and brilliant. There is no other like him. Forever he will be my friend....maybe even more one day....
Ramble Topic Two: Sage
Three years and running Online Friendship. WEEEE! Sage is one of the coolest I've EVER known! I mean she helps me so much with my writings (mostly cuase she's in them) but yeah! She reads my poetry, she gives me tips...yeah. She's the one of the best persons I know. Truly she is a great friend. Her and V i plan to meet one day. That i will. They are the greatest and the bestest.
I mean they listen to me. They don't put me down. They see all the sides....I dun know...they are just wonderful people. Sage and Vanessa....I mean I've never met them, but does that matter to me? NO! NEVER! They are the greatest there ever was! Sage may not be the 'ideale'(sp?) friend but she cares! She listens! She isn't mean...not to me....And V...people put her down so much and yet she's a ray of sunshine in my eyes. A pillar of hope. Someone I can always turn to when I need someone to lean on. Same with Sage...I don't know...I tell them so much....I don't lie to them. Never will I do that. It's not right anywayz. I would betray trust...lose my self diginty...yeah....They're just people. I hold them dear to my heart.
Dwee, Sage is such a good artist too...it's amazing...I wish I could draw on the computer like she can...ya know Lindsey can do that too....it's so awesome! I Totally love my friends! They are the greatest things in the world!
Vanessa and Sage are two of the greatest. ^_^
I hope we're friends for a very, very loooooooooooooooooooong time.
Ramble Topic Three: Soccer
2003 Lady Knight's Soccer Score:
Games Played: 3
*Games Missed: 1
Won: 0
Lost: 1
Tied: 2
* AKA rainded out, cancelled....yada-yada-yada.
That's all for now Folks!
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
11:21:00 PM
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