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wRamblings of a Giggling Baka |
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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Monday, July 14, 2003 |
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If I curse at all...sorry...
::sighs:: Life isn't supposed to be easy right? God gives us challenges that we have to over come. He never gives you anything you can't handle right? I guess that's calming in a way...but again it is not.
Here's my problem of the week....
My dad can not settle an agruement without hateful words and yelling.
My mom sets strandrads high, almost too high.
Sounds like fun right?
And somehow everything, EVERYTHING that is wrong ALWAYS gets directed back to me! Thanks to that person that is called my dad. Somehow all the causes of this world is my fault.
The latest cause of agruement is Sarah S appartently...
I went to her house earlier this week. I told my dad I was and that was fine. But I didn't know I was to stay the night(I had no extra clothes) and really. I should've known because Sarah lives like 45 minutes away from me. Okay...so I called my dad. He said it was okay on...Monday, I think. All seems well as I have a blast. I get one of those angry phone calls from him on Tuesday at 10:35...I was still sleeping though Sarah was at school or coming home I think. I listened to it at probably 11 when I was wide awake. I think at that time Sarah's mom, Ann, was PO'd at the E-ville driver's ed thing....Anywho...I told her and stuff and all seemed fine when I got home.
My mom came home from Ireland and, oh my Cookies....I wish her standrads weren't so high with the house being clean...I tried really....I vacuumed a bit, tried to scrub the scum off the walls and junk.....I'm just not that great at cleaning...
Everything went downhill...My dad had responbilities if he was driving my mom's car....he was supposed to keep it clean and change the oil. That was all. Two simple things...and did he do it...No.
I cleaned the car for my mom but I can't change oil. I can only do so much....
I was washing some clothes too when my dad got into one of his fits.
Let's see....he said I should break off all social connections with Sarah because they can't keep a time schedule properly(what a load of shit) and I shouldn't hang out with Aly because of all her "problems"(stupid ass doesn't know a damn thing)....and let's see, I shouldn't hang out with John or Lindsey because they're "unsafe" drivers(they got into a few fender benders...big deal)....Technically, I should be hanging out with preppy children and be all prefect and wonderful and act like the trophy, straight A student I am.
Where the hell does he get this?!
Oh and let's see....because I left his clothes in the drier and because i wouldn't work this last Saturday I'm lazy, good for nothing.
Last time I wash his clothes without being asked or paid.
Life is a whole lotta fun can't ya tell I love it
Then he was yelling all last night about something....I was scared....I was hiding in my closest for heaven's sake. I can't stand yelling anymore.....I've been broken to a point.
Even when Mrs G gently yelled at me about my D on my test(I wanted to be in Chem H and still do and I know I'm in it ^_^), I was sniffling and degrading myself once again....
The world happened and it's my fault....
The yelling never ceases....
Nothing is what it seems to be....
And I can't find Sarah, Nate, or Aly....
All seems lost and it's my fault....
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
11:02:00 PM
Cookies?-[ Cookies!]
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