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wRamblings of a Giggling Baka |
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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Sunday, November 09, 2003 |
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How can you be found,
When you�re lost among your dreams?
How can you see,
When everything has made you blind?
How can you solve,
When a problem has no answer?
How can you live,
When you�re empty inside?
So many things that you can�t heal,
Is breaking you, tearing you from within.
Because,
How can you forgive,
When you can�t forget?
How can you love,
When you feel hate?
How can you save,
When you aren�t rescued?
How can you protect,
When you are alone?
You want to be saved,
But no savior has come.
You�re breaking from within�
No one can save you.
How can you run,
When you have nowhere to go?
~*~*~
I feel lost among my dreams...something i haven�t felt for a long time...i�ve gotten so...reliant on reality that I�ve lost creativeness in my writing too...which is how I am blind...ive lost sight of what I was and what I could've become...and it seems like everything takes a downward spiral when i try to bring it up again...and it just drains me of thought and feelings...that I cant stop any of this from happening and cant control myself...then it keeps getting worse and worse not letting me bounce back and heal�and it just tears at my soul....
then I start to loose the good feelings...like love because all i know is hate and I cant do anything to save myself and I dont tell anyone so I cant be rescued....but then I feel as if I have to protect everyone as I isolate myself in my own world...i want someone to help me but I dont let them in and I keep breaking....because I dont tell everything cause I cant figure out what to tell!
then I just want to run...but everyone gets so mad with me that i cant run anywhere because of everything has happened...and i just shell up and keep getting lower and lower until i like snap and get into this depressed mood that i cant break...until I get out and do something that makes me feel worthwhile, like service camp..
but i can never tell anyone anything because it takes me like a decade to figure out my own feelings because I try to occupy myself with everything that doesnt involve my feelings
i just get so down there that takes something big to bring me back....thats why I can write well sometimes...and other times its just not right�
screwed aren�t I?
But Im just used to sharing my problems with ppl...Ill give them a taste on how I feel but I wont tell everything. Nope.
As Aly says, 'you take everyone's problems put them on your shoulders, then stick yours away and let no one see them until its too late'...
Though now....I dont know. Maybe I can do something different.
::shrugs::
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
6:54:00 PM
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