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wRamblings of a Giggling Baka |
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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Sunday, November 02, 2003 |
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I've identified my feelings...and yet i wonder if I should tell them...I want so badly...but im afraid too....I really wanna tell her how I feel...but I wonder if she'll dis-love me for it...::sigh and she's my best friend, I can tell her everything right?
but how do you tell someone that you're scared you're gonna loose them to a guy...that you dont want to be earsed from their thoughts and memories and replaced by a sucky boy...
Truly, i believe this is what some of my friends were going through when I was over-obbessed with Nate...now Im just a mild case, lol. I don't talk about him but cookies, he's so on my mind that its not funny. But I leave room in my heart and my mind for my friends...they like are my center of exsistence! They have made me what i am truly am...and I love them all!
But Im also afraid that Ill loose them all too easily too...
Like without seeing Aly I feel as if im loosing my Anime/creative self...she's like someone of inspiration to me! She's so nice and has just the right advice...and she's so funny and totally gets me into all these fun things like Anime and Final Fantasy!
I don't want to loose her! I swear that when I drive, Im gonna be at her house as much as possible. Probably like in the fall ill be there from like 4 till 7 and whenever I can manage if after bball and soccer season...and during the summer, oh ho! Im so gonna drive her anywhere she wants to go!
She's just another part of my soul...
and with Blondie...she's my athelic side of me. And she's just so mcuh fun to be around! But Im afraid im gonna loose her to David...and btw, I really dont like David...he gets on my nerves too easily.
But really...i am an attention seeker when I am around her...if I am with her, I do want her attention, I don't like sharing it with a guy. I gotta get over it! ::slams her head against her desk:: its just so...STUPID! But she's one of the only ppls that i want attention from...the other ppl are Nate and Aly.
Normally Ill be in the background going 'lalalala' or wandering around aimlessly. It's just in my nature to be quiet until im acknowledged. But im finally becoming more open though...oh gosh i don't know!
::hits her head agianst a wall:: baka, baka, baka....
Blah....I shall conquer!
I am Mo the Mighty Baka of Kyousha!
And I love my friends...I gotta not hurt them...cause if I hurt them, Ill be hurting myself...
Help me, all.
Advice is good, hugs are better.
Anything will help!
Love ya all!
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
8:46:00 PM
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