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wRamblings of a Giggling Baka |
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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Tuesday, December 23, 2003 |
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No one understands....
or do some do but I don't know that they do...I do not know...
One thing I know is that some of my closest friends don't understand what it is like to away from someone...that...that completely sweeps you off your feet whenever you see or think of him.
Whenever I am sad or I can't think of anything good....a little door opens in my heart and a ray of light shines through. A door that seems to always be there....a door that leads to another heart that keeps me strong.
I know it sounds a wee bit corny and stupid but that's what it feels like to me...that there's someone else that's always with me that isn't an onmipersent being (aka God). It's the counterpart of my soul...a reason of my joy and happyness to live. For without him I do not know what may have been...
I love him deary as a friend and I truly believe that love him as like...oh...hmm.... not as a boyfriend but as something more. Something greater then that, ya know?
No...I don't you know...I think he knows but no one else probably would....perhaps I'm too young to guess at my feelings, perhaps I'm too young to be attached to one man....
He's also my closest guy friend too...i really don't know...
I miss him so much...
I just want to be with him and hear his voice...he has a wonderful smell too ^_^;;....and to look into his blue eyes and just into them...they're so dark and deep and seems like they hold all the answers in the world but their locked away...hidden until the time is right to find them...
Man....I gotta be like the most pathetic thing on the earth at the moment....all I can think about his him...I'm snuggling the puppy he got me, everything I look at reminds me of him...blah...and i keep replaying a really happy moment in my mind...tehehe....yeah I really liked that date...But blah...
it feels as if my heart is breaking without him...
I need him...I admit that...he's a link to my happyness and my sanity.
And last night....i don;t know, I felt like crap and I think my words in which I said to him last night reflected it....I don't wanna hurt him ever! That'd be breaking a piece of myself only ten times worse!
I need to be with him...I need to have him hold me and for the world to slip into our own little time together....
Just me and Him.
Together for a few moments but a seemingly enterity.
Just me and Nate.
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
8:13:00 PM
Cookies?-[ Cookies!]
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