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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Thursday, January 15, 2004 |
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Continuation from last Post
Well, my cpu freaked from what i was last typing on that other entry...
anywho, i told Naters what i thought i would do....
Mo: are you up to a serious discussion? ::pondering look::
Naters: _-shrugs-_
Naters: umm... depends...
Mo: it's nothing horrible
Naters: mkay
Mo: though its not he greatest either...
Naters: _-nods-_
Naters: mkay
Mo: would you be up to a period of seperation between May 25th and the start of Service camp?
Well, there are the words that could seal my doom or free my soul...scary isn't it? But I truly do think that a period of seperation is the best move for us both. It will strengthen us into better ppl!
Naters: whyfor?
Mo: cause i need a breather...i need time to collect my thoughts and make sure im doing the right thing...>cause ya know...i really...erm...::twiddles her fingers together:: sorta like...wanna...spend the rest of my life with ya....
but i need time to make sure i am ready for that
Naters: do You need the whole summer? because service camp is at the end of the summer
Mo: yeah, plus ill be at school too in June...driver's ed
Mo: so l wont have much of summer
Mo: linsense in september
Naters: i don't really see the use in a seperation
Naters: unless theres a period of seeing each other at long periods of time before it
Naters: at least i don't see the use in so long a separation
Mo: but sweetie, i do. i need time to meditate and soul-search....ya know, it's not healthy for a couple (particularly in HS) to date without periods of break...
From there we proceded into decussion about how long this thing should be and when...we compromised on May 15th - June 30th.
Then we did that uncanney read each other's mind thing we do....
Naters: i'm gonna go totally crazy during that period of time, but if You really want to, i'm in no position to refuse it
Mo: thank you, i just want to be sure that i am positive about my decision, ya know?
Naters: _-nods-_
Naters: i know that i'd like to spend the rest of my life with You.
Mo: you spoke my unanswered Question
Naters: ?
Mo: i was just gonna ask if we saw eye-to-eye on that
Then we discussed sharing an apartment and how our parents said we aren't allowed to marry until we're out of college.
And then he asked what would happen during the seperation...
Naters: exactly how would the separation thing work?
Mo: ugh you want details...
Mo: we'd still talk, and hang out, but as friends ya know. we'd still see each other just no kissing and holding hands...hugs are acceptable cause we'll always be friends and friends always hug
Naters: just not the same kind of hug, ne?
Mo: and i need to make sure that you are the one...so that sorta means, i need to date other ppl....though the likeyhood of that is a little slim.
yeah...basically
Naters: yeah, that's the part i dun like... i won't be dating other people, but i'm also a kind of jealous person...
Mo: i know sweetie, everything should go according to plan.
cause i've never felt like i have with anyone but you...and the relationships aren't gonna last more then two weeks, cause im gonna be the one breaking up
Naters: _-nods-_
Mo: i have my plans for this. and it will all fall into place and by the end, i will feel immensely stupid for doubting the love in my heart and over-joyed cause i have someone that truly loves me
Let's pray that i am have done the right thing.
I do think i have and i really believe we will be stronger after this. And then i snuggle on him all i want without worries or doubts!
This will be a good experience!
....I hope i don't go insane...
Actually I hope Nate doesn't go on a psycho-rampage....
Everyday might be like torture...cause i believe i will be wanting to be to close to him and for him to hold me...but yeah...I pray this works out well.
I ain't telling no one else but those that read this and Bob and Mac...so like, dun spread the word or nada.
Cookies and crums with Love!
Mighty Mo Kyousha
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
9:35:00 PM
Cookies?-[ Cookies!]
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