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wRamblings of a Giggling Baka |
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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Saturday, January 24, 2004 |
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Most Marvelous Weekend
Let's see, so right now it's saturday and i was awakened at 9 by Ann (Sarah's Mom). I had e-mailed her last night because i really needed someone to talk to. I ended up calling her back at 9:30 and she was a very good listener for me.
Then, then, then, I walked around Collinsville with Stephen! We went to the library, to Dizzy Dugout, and just walked around! We even walked around in the graveyard near his house. We talked a lot and did a lot of bounding. ^_^ The happiness.
And and and, soon Naters is coming over!!!
And tomorrow me and Ashley are gonna watch movies. ^_^ Weeee!
But...amoung all my happiness there is still a bout of sadness...
This song 'Perfect' By Simple Plan is a good comparitive to how i feel about Sarah right now...
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
'Cuz you don't understand
I talked to David last night and what we talked about made a lot of sense....our group is not as tightly knit as the Group so we're all a little more clicky with each other. David said (not to point fingers) that chris, stuart, and sarah cause most of our groups problems. Because ....
A) stuart makes fun of us basically
B) chris really messes up things between a lot of us
C) sarah is really takes things wrong at times...and other things...
Then he proceeded into telling me (after i self-bashed myself about always being the way and stuff) that if i wasn't there a lot more shit would happen between us all. He said I am a pillar for our group....
And that's kinda comfonting ya know?
He's a good friend to talk to...I'm starting to kinda fear talking to Sarah...::sighs:: she wrote a really nasty profile in my honor on her AIM s/n...all well. I guess things happen and saying sorry can't fix it anymore...but ya know what, i really WISH i knew what i freaking DID!!!
Blaah...but i dun...so, I must let it go. She can talk to me when she feels like it and for now, I'll just stay out of the picture.
Kudos Cookies and Love,
mo
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
5:20:00 PM
Cookies?-[ Cookies!]
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