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wRamblings of a Giggling Baka |
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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Monday, March 29, 2004 |
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Mo: You said this to Ashley so now I say it to you, why the HELL to you value a guy over your friends?
Sarah: what the hell is your problem???
Mo: you
Sarah: whoever said that?
Mo: well that's the way you're acting and it hurts.
Mo: and im sick of being caused pain for things I cant change.
Mo: damnit I loved you, i loved with you with all I was, and you just threw me ASIDE.
Mo: like hell you're gonna leave too, you're talking to him cuase THAT is all you care about anymore.
Sarah: I'm tired of you actin' like you are the only one of us allowed to have a b/f okay
Sarah: grow up
Mo: to say that means as a little to me as it does to you. To grow up that is.
Sarah: am I never allowed to talk to him?
Mo: how about acknowledging that you care for someone else besides him.
Mo: Look into my eyes, you'll see a million tears have gone by And still they're not dry!
Sarah: I do but she doesn't care about what I want, only what she wants me to want
Mo: do you....do you really know what torment you're putting her through...
Sarah: you are bein' so gosh darn possessive! You are actin' worse than my cousin... whos's 3~
Sarah: do you really care about what the hell you are doin' to me
Sarah: or do you only think of yourself
Sarah: HUH! SHUT UP CUZ I DON'T WANNA HEAR IT YOU HEAR IT... YOU HAVE NATE.. LET ME HAVE RUSS DAMNIT!
Mo: I dont give Nate all my freaking time like you do.
Mo: *to Russ that is
Mo: and yes you have a good point
Sarah: you are bein' very childish
Sarah: you know
Mo: you're making two ya know
Sarah: makin' two what?
Mo: childish beings
Sarah: like you said, " I'm surrounding myself with people who love me"
Sarah: if you loved me you realized how important he is 2 me
Mo: fine, then I dont love you.
Sarah: you are important too,but you wont enver support me
Mo: its hard to love someone when all you feel is remorse.
Sarah: seems
Sarah: so
Mo: i would if you'd let me be by your side...you've pushed me away which is partly my fault, so ya know, its kinda hard to support.
Sarah: I'm sorry I'm tryin' but you run away 2 cate
Sarah: & it leaves me....silient
Mo: not to Cate, i've told nothing to Cate.
Sarah: I didnt say u did
Mo: and run to her, I do not either.
Sarah: I just you left me
Mo: you're partly to blame for that
Sarah: cant I have you both
Sarah: probably
Sarah: I was actually studyin' for geometry
Sarah: you know
Mo: you just have one now, and that's him. You left me on me the doorstep and im trying to get back in...
Sarah: Becuz you won't let me have him too!
Mo: so he is more important, then I suppose.
Sarah: why does it have to be like that
Sarah: why do I have to rank you guys
Mo: really, what the hell do I matter to you. Was I just there so you could have him or get a guy.
Sarah: no, fuck no and you know that!
Mo: that's how I feel, that's what it feels like.
Sarah: don't you ever say that again
Sarah: you won't ever do it on my own.. and you didn't do anything to get me and russ together I know you introduced us, but that's it..
Mo: got you hooked on AIM too I did but yeah, w/e...
Sarah: shut up, okie, I'm human I can't do everything right
Sarah: leave me alone
Sarah: God.. why do you do this to me
Sarah: I am tryin' to freakin' hard and all you do is complain
Sarah: all you ever freakin' do any more
Sarah: you are never grateful for anything
Sarah: so
Sarah: there
Sarah signed off at 9:57:45 PM.
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once again…I did it again…I hate myself. I really truly hate what I am.
I hate her when she goes away...but I love her when she is near.
I'm a twisted, jealous fool...A bitch that shouldn't be allowed to love...
I am nothing to this world and I am nothing to her.
How can a love just die for another?
But...as I loose one love, I still have Naters and my true friends.
They haven't left me, and I trust them not to ever.
What is the point of loving when no one really cares?
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
10:09:00 PM
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