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wRamblings of a Giggling Baka |
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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Tuesday, November 30, 2004 |
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So today during English, Gerber was like "mo, you are too fucking happy, what is wrong with you?"
Lol, and I replied, "Well...i tried to be sad on Saturday but it just didn't work out..."
Gerber just laughed at me and shook her head.
Well, ya know, ^_^;; i really don't get sad...fusterated a little at people and stuff...but the only time I've gotten into a truly bad place was with Sarah last year...and ya know what I've learned, no person is worth all that emotion. If they don't care that they've broken your heart, then SCREW THEM. I will -not- revolve my life around someone like her, and most definately her.
I've learned...that I like to to have to many friends. I mean I love hanging out with my Freshmen, I adore them so much! Though I am slightly stalking them...and like what happened last year, I'm drifting away from John and Lindsey...i mean, I'm sorry...but, eh? If you don't talk to me or seek me out, I tend to not to either. I'm sorry! It's a really bad habit...sigh, i like to be around people that want to talk to me and that include me...sometimes i do feel left out cause I mean...I drift a lot and that's because I'm still terrified of being attached to someone again like I was to Sarah...Nate, there's just no question that I love him but with everyone else...believe me, if I say I love you, in anyway, I DO. There is no denying that. I love all my friends dearly, most dearly and I would do ANYTHING for you if you asked it, that's an unconditional too...::sigh:: Just please don't break me again, I don't wanna go back to the "dark" places of my mind, they deserve to stay tucked away even if it does pay back in the long run. ^_^;; Bottling up stuff = not good, but it does get rid of the problem at the time being, lol.
So I just babbled nonsense...but that general thing is, I love being happy. I love life. I love being me. And if that's wrong, then I'm sorry but i'm not gonna change, EVER, again for anyone. I did it once and I tried my best but my best wasn't enough and I was tossed away like old trash. So forget you if you want that! I will not conform! I WILL BE MO!
I'm sorry Sarah but I'll never accept Russ. Not after what you two did to me. And I don't care if you get mad at me, I still love you...and I always will because that is my curse. You're still my friend but I'll never go back to believing in Him and being HIS friend after what he did.
So there. I will do things the way I feel that is right, what more can you ask for?
Love and Kduos,
Mo
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
7:19:00 PM
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