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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Friday, January 28, 2005 |
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So I'm gonna type on here so Gerber can't degrade my all ready low self-esteem anymore.
Ah-hem....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!
STRESSSTRESSSTRESSSS!!
Okay, so, first off, these last two weeks have been HELL. I don't know why, I'm starting not to care, and I just want to HARM something. I'm about ready to go buy a foam staff and start hitting a random guy senseless.
Dear Lord! How can two weeks go so horrid!
A) I'm not sleeping. At All. Thanks a lot HW and BBall.
B) BBall is HELL
C) I'm just pissed off
Oh and why am I in such a crappy mood? BECAUSE I AM A MORON! Dear Lord, do I amaze myselef at how stupid that I CAN BE. I swear, it's amazing how like conceited/self-centered/idiotic I can manage to be in one day.
Then, oh yes and THEN! On the freaking one day i get to sleep well, my dumbass father comes into my room and depends to know where the hell the system disks are. I'm sorry but what the hell gives him the right to do this? HE DAMN WELL KNOWS I haven't been sleeping well and that I've been looking. And damnit, I'm being emotional and I hate being emotional because emotions just don't love me!
NYRRAAAAH! And then I have to get up at like 6 on Sunday and thank God, 9 tomorrow for Nate's bday but still.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!!!
And...sigh. I lose at life. I won't even go into my whole rant about the minions...
I hate friendships at times.
All well.
Life goes on.
Well, good things that happened.
Well, I called Tara and she still at Robyn's (GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH**deepbreathdeepbreath** Fusteration!!) and I was sorta hoping she would come shopping with me or even go to the movies...but no. So, I basically just went 'screw her' (badattitudebadattitudebadmobadmo) and called Stephen instead. So Stephen and I went to Arby's for lunch then to Slackers and then to the Bing shop. He helped me buy Nate's xmas gifts.
Then I took my mommy to the movies with Jill and Stephen and we saw Phantom...it also seems like that everyone but me was crying. I sometimes gotta wonder if I have any senstivity left in me at times. I mean it was sad...but I just didnt care.
I think I either care too much or too little...
All well.
I sometimes have gotta wonder if I belong with any group of friends....the CT is like dead because of the rifts caused between us by A) graduation B) the hatred of Stuart. My minions...have their own friends and I guess we don't really have time for each other, That or I spend too much time with them. Who knows. My boys...have finally grown up and are definately expanding their horizons. Sigh. And everyone else, just everyone else. Ashley is just psychoatic and dependent on Dane. Sarah is screwed over by her parents and I just don't care anymore...because they don't care either. I juggled them around Nate...but they don't juggle me around their boys. And I try to be good. I try to be accepting and understanding;....but it's hard to be in second place in someone's heart...and we're supposed to be best friends. But what does Best Friends mean anyways?
The only person who is there for me, who puts me 1st in his heart, is Nate...and I think I put everyone too equal with my love...I think I try to make everyone feel special and happy...and i guess I forget about him...and myself.
I don't know how to be happy without being around people...or making others happy.
I'm not good at being alone...
I'm not good at anything really.
But it doesn't really matter cause nothing really does. What matters is that you live a good life and believe in Christ...and thus, life goes on with or without you. Because it waits for no one but itself and as such, well, we're all screwed.
And as I always say, All well.
~ Mo
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Can You See Me?
Friday, January 14, 2005 |
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Do you know what's so effing wrong?
Thinking and actually planning a marriage for when you are 18?! OMFUCKINGG.
Sarah's mom is like planning out Sarah's life. It's so not right! I mean Russ and Sarah have zero life experience if they get married...Dear God, they are so screwed. They should at least 'till they can at least drink. (what's the fun of a wedding when you can't drink, c'mon)
It's just so stupid and wrong, so so very wrong...
And do ya know what I've noticed, if I didn't laugh at life, i would so be dead.
I would be beyond dead...
With all the shit that my parents do (im not even gonna say cause it's my place to say), the way my relationsips go with people, and just my own little problems...I'm suprised im not like Gerber or that I am not dead.
I am lucky.
I have hit the bottom before but I have made it out. And now that I've found my way, I always be able to find it again.
Just...the wounds will never heal and the scars will always be there.
So cliche but so true in manners of the heart.
I.
Will.
Never.
Give.
Up.
Even if it's the last thing that I do.
Hugs and Love,
Mo
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Can You See Me?
Monday, January 10, 2005 |
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I.
Got.
Bumped.
From.
1st.
Chair.
I. AM. NOT. HAPPY.
We lost our game again today, i had to drive in the night/fog, and I started to cry at school.
It was a crappy, good-for-nothing day.
But you know what....CARPE DIEM!
<---Sieze the Day! (From Dead Poet's Society)
Tomorrow will always, -always- be BETTER even if today was Hell.
I love life too much to cry anymore. Nothing is better then just breathing and believing that there will always be good. Nothing bad ever lasts forever. It never will because there is Jesus Christ. He saved us...from everything. Why should we dwell on the bad things when we have all this LIFE to live for?!
Why not breathe and run around like a moron?
Why not be insane and laugh at everything?
Why not love what God has given us?
Nothing bad can last forever. ^_^
HAVE NO FEAR! ~ The Kyousha Motto
And Love...just Love for all you are worth. Because if you don't live up today, it will just be a wasted space in time that could have been filled with greater things.
Today may have been horrid....but I have so much more to live for. There is so much that God has set before me. I need to sieze this life and make it as great as it possibly can.
Love. Hugs. Peace.
~ Mo
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Can You See Me?
Sunday, January 09, 2005 |
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1. I cried out with no reply, And I can't feel you by my side
2. To find a love upon a higher level Finding nothing but questions and devils
3. I hear the voices when I'm dreaming I can hear them say
4. This is the verse about the Parachute pants That I learned to break dance in and thought I was good
5. because i'm convinced that giving in is the worst thing there is
6. Okay no more songs about you. After this one I am done
7. A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
8. The sword of time will pierce our skins
9. The tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail
10. As I slowly drift to sleep, for a moment, dreams are sacred.
11. But we can see Messiah rise in these places, Until the tears are gone
12. Green, black and blue,Make the colors in the sky. ((Aly - Butterfly from DDR))
13. Live right now and just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough For someone else.
14. All you can see is a sea of people, some white and some black
15. Did they send me daughters when I asked for sons?
16. Got crashed where you burn and I'll be what you were
17. You might think I'm happy But I'm not gonna be ok
18. But in the meantime there are those who wanna talk this and that
19. Cut the skin to the bone Fall asleep all alone
20. You could tell me why you just don't fit in
All there's 20 lines from 20 different bands.
See if you can tell me who they are!
msg me at HersheyDogg or leave a comment
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I know that I won't cry because there is somebody, somebody waiting for me....
I get myself down so easily. I don't know I do it.
I don't really care about my grades, I mean i got a 3.1 but I'll work harder this semester....But i get myself down with the relationships I have with people.
I dun know, I'm a moron.
Pure and simple.
I miss Sarah. I miss having her as my best friend, I miss going over to her house and watching movies or reading magazines...I miss our agruments about country music...I miss just being able to give her a hug.
I miss Ashley. She isn't open with me...never has been. She's open with Sarah and Dane and Keith...and yeah...
I miss Nate. I miss....being able to sit in dream about him in class but I don't know because I'm too busy trying to pay attention. I miss just...a lot of things that I won't get into.
I mean I think I am trying to replace like Sarah and Ashley a bit with different people...
But I reall,y, really miss the Crack Team.
I miss Meaghan and Cate and Aly and John and Lindsey and Jill and everyone!
I feel horriblr about what I've done with Sarah and how things can never be right again...and I sometimes wonder if she misses me. I doubt it. I really doubt it if she can see pass asshole in a can Russell effing May.
I'm bitter, so bitter, and I can't let go.
All well.
Kudos.
Mo
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Sunday, January 02, 2005 |
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Fruits of Your Labor (things you can't live without)
Something important on your desk: my cell phone
When you sleep you wear: fun PJ pants and t-shirts
If you could afford it at the moment, you would buy: Actually I would bribe UPS to bring my laptop faster! AAAAAH!
Something you don't have a lot of: Time.
If your house was burning and you could only save 3 items what would they be:
A) my pets, they all count as one object
B) my Nate blanket/stuff animals (count as same thing)
C) my laptop...when I get it.
MORALS
If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to: Nate. Simply and absolutely Nate. And I would be married to him, in college, loving life.
A time when you purposly hurt someone emotionally: Umm, no memory of such an event.
A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally: I don't knoooow...
One person you have killed in your thoughts: Russ.
FRIENDS:
Three traits you look for in a friend:
A) someone I can talk to and just tell everyone to
B) someone who i enjoy doing absolutely NOTHING with
C) just someone who is nice...
Who makes you laugh most often: Aly and Cate, together.
A friend who you can tell anything: Fizzy
A friend you can got to for advice: Fizzy
The best piece of advice you had been given: I don't know, i tend to ruin people's lives instead of make them better.
Two closest friends: Nate and Fizzy...if you go by to whom who know the most about me...and Aly too, obviously.
The friend who uses most of your energy: Jake and Tara
EGO
Your 3 best qualities: I listen, I love, and I laugh. These are the three essential ingrediants of a Mo.
Your 3 worst qualities: Trusting too easily, not knowing when to shut up, wanting to please everyone.
You are embarassed when: the cookies attack.
The greatest physical pain you ever endured: I don't endure pain.
The greatest emotional pain you ever endured: Losing my heart to someone who I thought cared...
Moment you are most ashamed of: I don't know. I don't remember things like that.
Your best physical feature: My hands I guess. They're small and strong.
Who/What makes you happy: reading, writing, being with friends.
Who/what makes you sad: Life in general
EMOTIONS
Emotion you hide most: Sadness/feeling out of place. All you can is just smile and keep moving on.
The emotion you tend to experience most: happiness
The emotion you are feeling most lately: happiness
You have a huge amount of guilt regarding: Hurting someone I care about and stuffing myself senseless with large amounts of good food.
When you are angry you need: Books
When you are sentimental you need: Poetry
When you are in love you need: Nate
MEMORIES
One of your most peaceful memories: at Service camp by the campfire, leaning on Nater's a month after being together.
One of your most tragic memories: :;shrugs::
One of your angriest memories: Fighting with Sarah. Need there be more said?
A memory that makes you laugh: Stealing Melva or tping with Jake
A memory that makes you happy: being Sarah at her farm the summer before sophomore...we were laying I think by the silo's and just telling each other everything. We were the best of friends, y'know...
Something someone can say or do that you find extremely attractive: laugh
Something someone can say or do that you find unattractive: being stupid just for the sake of being stupid.
Two things appealing about people: smiles and music taste
A personality trait you find appealing: Uhh...I'm not sure.
Your secret passion: sleeping
What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship: the feeling of never be alone
RELATING
DO you have a bf/gf if yes who? yes, Nate.
What do you find sexy about them: He's perfect to cuddle against, i love his hair, he's fun to play with and around when he's not being all quiet, and his voice and smile. TOGETHER. They must come in a package for me to melt into a puddle because along they just aren't all that fun.
A place where you want to have sex: ..............
A strange place where you have had sex: last time I checked, I haven't had sex. Nyrah.
What drives you crazy (in a good way) about this person: hehe his hair
What music is on when you have sex, or is it the tv?: ............
Favorite song to have sex to : ...........
Describe your mate physicaly: Hair! curly fun and messy. Blue eyes, they are dark. Contact wearing, plushy! Cuddlable. Quiet. Cuuuute smile, fun laugh (LAUGH not chuckle, i hate the chuckle of doooom!)
Describle your mate's personality: He's quiet but intelligent. Can be witty. Can be annoying when he doesn't know what to say. Definately crazy.
You feel most attractive when: I haven't eaten as if there is no tomorrow, i would have to say probably when I lose about 20 pounds. ^_^
Favorite thing you like to see your mate wear (clothing wise don't say naked): Clothes? i don't know
What would you like your mate to do more of: Talk.
FINALLY
If you had more time alone you would: go nuts.
If you had more patience you would: be a saint.
If you could change one thing about your physical appearance what would it be: currently, my weight. Otherwise nothing. ^_^ I'm quite content with myself when I haven't eaten enough to feed an army. (Holidays are dangerous!)
If you had no committments what would you be doing: oh let's not get into that.
If you could have one super power what would it be: a knowledge of all martial arts/sword fighting tactics.
If you could start all over....i would have never introduced Russ to Sarah.
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What is your name?: Mo/Maureen
Are you named after anyone?: I'm Irish so I'm named because of my family inhertience...
What's your screename?: Hersheydogg
Would you name a child of yours after you?: ha...no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Michael Crawford
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: I -like- my name. Though I wouldn't mind being called Frankie/Ellabel. Tehehehe.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: Mo-e-. THERE IS NO E! And it's Maureen not Marine! GRRR!
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: Hmmm...I don't know.
Basics
Your gender:: Female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: Straight
Single?: Nate!
If not, do you want to be?: Nah
Birthdate:: July 29th
Your age:: 16
Age you act:: according to my mom, 60.
Age you wish you were:: 16
Your height:: 5'3.75"
Eye color:: Blue
Happy with it?: mhm ^_^
Hair color:: brown...turning red instead of blonde now. (first my eyes and now my hair changes colors...what's next? my skin?!)
Happy with it?: It amuses me
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: Right
Your living arrangement:: I own two rooms and a bathroom.
Your family:: my dogs, my cat, and my parents. Then there's me.
Have any pets?: Dogs - hershey and bridget, Cat - crystal
Whats your job?: Household Slave/Student
Piercings?: Two on each ear. Want three.
Tattoos?: Nah.
Obsessions?: Candles
Addictions?: Caffeine
Do you speak another language?: Hablo espanol, un poco.
Have a favorite quote?: 'Tell all the English boys you meet' tra-la-la-la, Brand New is not good for me.
Do you have a webpage?: well, I have this thing.
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it: Life sucks then you grow old and go to heaven. But along the way there's love, joy, hate, anger, and people. In that order.
Do you live in the moment?: mmm Yeah
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Depends
Do you have any secrets?: Uhh...I dont know.
Do you hate yourself?: Not really.
Do you like your handwriting? Heheh, only i can read it!
Do you have any bad habits?: mmm eating
What is the compliment you get from most people?: "You're so grown up!" -- Is that really a compliment?
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "What NOT To Do When You Consume Sugar"
What's your biggest fear?: losing all my friends
Can you sing?: Carry a tune, yes. Sing, no.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: nope
Are you a loner?: hehe no
What are your #1 priorities in life?: To have fun
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Eh...
Are you a daredevil?:
Tara's Repsonse - Going 80 on the backroads of Troy with Mo in a car and getting her entire Saturn in the air...stealing Melba/a traffic barricade...Mo is a bad influence
And I reply - Well...just a little.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: i fear my anger because on the occasional times I've gotten mad...yeah. Not happy times. And trust me, no one has seen me angry. I've been fusterated, annoyed, and sick of people. But I haven't slaughtered anyone in front of anyone yet...okay, one moment of public anger, slightly killing Kevin Unthank's balls. So the whole 2nd hour sophomore PE class saw me mad, once.
Are you passive or agressive?: I'm passively agressive.
Do you have a journal?: Online and writing journal, yes.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Trusting.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: I would lose 20 pounds so I can be back to 130. ^_^
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Yes, i think.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Hehehe, Nope. Okay, except the whole Sarah/Russ thing, NOPE!
Do you think life has been good so far?: It's been fun.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Be careful who you trust. Not everyone will love you as you love them.
What do you like the most about your body?: my hands
And least?: my waist
Do you think you are good looking?: mm i dont know
Are you confident?: Yes.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: oh there are so many. I am the typical heroine who would sacerfice herself for her friends and for love. The one that everyone trusts, the one who loves without condition, the one that tries to happiness to everyone...Yes. I am just that typical heroine that is happy no matter the crappiness of life because if one counted all the horrid that has ever happened, there would be enough depression in the world to fill up our galaxy.
---this answer has been made according to past surveys on my personalty i've made my friends take, what Vanessa said, and from past quizzies. Thank you and have a nice day.
Are you perceived wrongly?: Um?
Do You...
Smoke?: no.
Do drugs?: nope
Read the newspaper?: yes
Pray?: yes
Go to church?: I went last night ^_^
Talk to strangers who IM you?: Yes ^_^
Sleep with stuffed animals?: mhm
Take walks in the rain?: on nice warm days when there is no thunder
Talk to people even though you hate them?: yes
Drive?: yes
Like to drive fast?: only on highways and backroads
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: yes
Hurt yourself?: eh, i used to put myself down a lot and had zero self-confidence...but physically, nope. ^_^
Been out of the country?: Mexico when I was eight.
Eaten something that made other people sick?: mmmm probably lol but i don't remember a time right now
Been in love?: Yes
Done drugs?: Actually, no.
Gone skinny dipping?: No.
Had a medical emergency?: no
Had surgery?: no
Ran away from home?: no
Played strip poker?: lalalala, i am not allowed to answer this, lalalala
Gotten beaten up?: haha no
Beaten someone up?: hehe yes
Been picked on?: well yeah, no liked me at GS and they've learned not to mess with me at Metro
Been on stage?: Yes
Slept outdoors?: heh yes
Thought about suicide?: Actually, no...I've thought death but ya know, usually those thoughts end with "damn I'm gonna live to a 100 aren't I before I die...all well!" (all of my family has lived to 80-105 so yeah...)
Pulled an all nighter?: Oh yeah!
If yes, what is your record?: 33 hours so far
Gone one day without food?: HA No
Talked on the phone all night?: yes
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: Lalalala yes, a few time
Slept all day?: oh yeah.
Killed someone?: oh not yet, just give me a few more years
Made out with a stranger?: lalala, oh just wait, it's bound to happen
Had sex with a stranger?: ......that won't happen.
Thought you're going crazy?: Yes!
Kissed the same sex?: O.o no
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: o.O no
Been betrayed?: Oh yes.
Had a dream that came true?: plenty of times
Broken the law?: Speeding, Melba, having wine at holidays (usually my mom's), hmmm...i think tping is illegal too
Met a famous person?: I -saw- Travis Parker from Blink 182 at Disneyland.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: hell no
On purpose?: NOOOOO
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: nope
Stolen anything?: lalalala, my middle name is Klepto, lalalalala
Been on radio/tv?: nope
Been in a mosh-pit?: ooo, yes
Had a nervous breakdown?: Jumping from the bleechers for the 10 hour of bball thing, yes.
Bungee jumped?: ....I would die....
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Eh...sorta
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: Truthfully i dont know
Miracles?: yep
Astrology?: eh
Magic?: no...angellic divinity (aka magic) yes...but nothin satanic magic.
God?: yes
Satan?: yes
Santa?: no
Ghosts?: eh i dont know...i suppose
Luck?: yeah
Love at first sight?: yes
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yes
Witches?: yes
Easter bunny?: i like chocolate
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yes...there may be rough spots but yes.
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: ^_^ yes
Do you wish on stars?: yes
Deep Theological Questions (well im screwed)
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: yes
Do you think God has a gender?: You will learn in Junior religion, that the trinty is male. Grah.
Do you believe in organized religion?: Yeah,it's amusing
Where do you think we go when we die?: Weeee, heaven!
[x] Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yeah
Who is your best friend?: Nate, Fizzy, and Aly know the most about me so they are the most qualified cause they can always make me feel better
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: stated three above
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: Be yourself.
Your favourite inside joke?: MAN TAMPONS! and it's not even my inside joke. tehehe.
Thing you're picked on most about?: my reading of books upon books without end
Who's your longest known friend?: Aly
Newest?: My freshmen
Shyest?: Tara
Funniest?: Jake
Sweetest?: Fizzy
Closest?: Three stated with best friend
Weirdest?: Tara because she amuses me greatly. ^_~
Smartest?: Meaghan
Ditziest?: hehehe, oh were all ditzy, let's not deny that
Friends you miss being close to the most?: Sarah
Last person you talked to online?: Tara
Who do you talk to most online?: Actually, I talk to a lot of ppl everyday online. It's scary...but my regulars are Nate, Ash, and Tara.
Who are you on the phone with most?: Tara
Who do you trust most?: ...umm, i trust too easily...but i do not trust SARAH or RUSS.
Who listens to your problems?: Fizzy
Who do you fight most with?: Sarah
Who's the nicest?: none of us are super nice...
Who's the most outgoing?: Me, lol. I'm probably the most outgoing person in my circle of friends. I will literally talk to anyone who talks to me first...and many people talk to me first.
Who's the best singer?: Hmm...Aly or Cate
Who's on your shit-list?: Sarah...it's sad when you go from BEST FRIEND to MORTAL ENEMY in about one year.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: hmm...no
Who's your second family?: most recently, tara
Do you always feel understood?: Not really!
Who's the loudest friend?: Lindsey or Jill
Do you trust others easily?: Yes.
Who's house were you last at?: THAAAAAAAAN'S!
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: Nate...and Sarah's still...God I hate life right now.
Do your friends know you?: Yeah, i dont keep secerts about myself
Friend that lives farthest away:: Brandon
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: No
What do you find romantic?: laughter and smiling
Turn-on?: Someone you can talk to
Turn-off?: someone who you can't talk to
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: the urge to kill this question.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: yes
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: i could care less
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: yep
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: yeah...at that's what the opposite sex likes to tell me
What is best about the opposite sex?: that they have the opposite plumbing as you!
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: they have testerone
What's the last present someone gave you?: Edward Scissorhands
Are you in love?: yes
Do you consider your significant other hot?: yes
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: Sarah
You wanted to kill?: Sarah and Stuart rival here
That you laughed at?: Tara
That laughed at you?: I have no idea
That turned you on?: ::shrugs::
You went shopping with?: Tara/Jake
That broke your heart?: Sarah
To disappoint you?: Sarah
To ask you out?: eww..not saying...
To make you cry?: Sarah
To brighten up your day?: Tara
That you thought about?: Nate
You saw a movie with?: Tara and Jake, Finding Neverland
You talked to on the phone?: tara
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: Tara
You saw?: Tara
You lost?: Sarah
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: oh no...
Will it be with your significant other?: I wish
What are you wearing right now?: MASH shirt and jeans!
Body part you're touching right now:: my keyboard? nothing really
What are you worried about right now?: im not worried...im just sad
What book are you reading?: Too many to name.
What's on your mousepad?: TIE-DYE SOCCER BALL
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: amused, sad, tired, bored, and creative strangely enough
Are you bored?: beyong all measure yes
Are you tired?: slightly
Are you talking to anyone online?: nope
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: yes, Jake
Are you lonely or content?: lonely
Are you listening to music?: fortess of tears by HIM
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A is for - Age: 16
B is for - Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Naters ^_^
C is for - Career in Future: Journalist / Pharmacist
D is for - Dead person you would like to meet: hmm...E.A. Robinson. Just beacuse I wanna give him a hug.
E is for - Essential item: my car
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: Hmmm...Crash and Burn by Savage Garden (essential song...loved it since I've first heard in 6th grade).
G is for - Girls you've kissed: ...hmm...nope, none.
H is for - Hometown: Collinsville Illinois, better known as Ketchupville, or RedNeck Capital of the World. Also the Horseradish capital of the world!
I is for - Instruments you play: Saxophone and Clarinet, I play well. Flute and Violin are just pasttime intrusments.
J is for - Job title: Student/Household Slave.
K is for - Kicks Ass: Fight Club or Snatch!
L is for - Living places: two story house, pretty decent size...i own two of the bedrooms and one bathroom.
M is for - Most memorable moment of today: Sleeping till 1pm so far
N is for - Number of people you've slept with: 0 ^_^
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: 0 ^_^
P is for - Phobias: Heights, Darkness, Silence, and being alone for extended periods of time without my doggies or mommy.
Q is for - Quote you like: Oh there are so many! "Blessed are those that give without remembering and Blessed are those that receive without forgetting."
R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: Nate, 2yrs and counting.
S is for - Sexuality: I do guys. ^_^
T is for - Time you wake up everyday: School - 6:30, Vacation - between 9am-1pm
U is for - Unique trait(s): I'm Mo. ^_^
V is for - Vegetable you love: Ehh....Cheesy Potatos.
W is for - Worst trait: Clinging?
X is for - X-rays you've had: 0
Y is for - Yummy food you make: 0
Z is for - Zodiac sign: LEO or for Chinese DRAGON
[Name]: Mo/Maureen
[Spell your name backwards]: neeruaM/oM
[Birthdate]: July 29th
[Birthplace]: St. Louis, Missouri
[Current Location]: Collinsville, IL
[Occupation(s)]: Household Slave/Student
[Eye Color]: BLUE! or without contacts Blue/green
[Hair Color]: It's brown...but now it has red in it. O.o Where did my blonde hairs go?!
[Righty or Lefty]: Right hand
[Zodiac Sign]: Leo or Chinese DRAGON.
[Innie or Outtie]: Innie
[Describe yourself in 3 words]: Amused by Life
[Who is your worst enemy?]: SIMONE!!! URG! Or really...Sarah? or Stuart? Or...the Devil? I don't know.
[If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?]: a Great Dane ^_^
[What is the latest you've ever stayed up]: a good 33 hours on Cate's 16th bday
[Ever been to Belgium?]: Oh not yet, give me a few years.
[What's your favorite coin?]: I prefer paper please.
DESCRIBE YOUR
[Wallet]: There's a kitty on it ^_^.
[Jewelery worn daily]: Two sets of earrings, silver. Two necklaces, silver. One watch, one Slytherin wristband, one stolen sweatband that says Bite Me, an assortment of rubberband bracelets, one rubberband, and one rubberband thingy.
[Favorite top]: My MASH t-shirts
[Favorite pants skirts!]: Either my Smiley face PJS or my MASH pjs
[Favorite shoes]: Umm...let's try this, shoes wore weekly.
Orange Converses, Flame Converses, black Skechers, green/gold Skechers, or my brown dressshoe type Skechers
[Cologne/Perfume]: Mmm, I like the smell of Jake or Nate. Perferrably Nate though ^_^
[CD in stereo right now]: I WANT MY LAPTOP! Just acoustic music on my cpu.
[Tattoos]: None.
[Piercings]: Two in each ear. I want three.
[Makeup]: Ha.
[Do you believe in love]: I try to.
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: Yeah.
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: Ehh....I'll have to pass on this question.
[Your fears]: Right now, falling from the bleachers into my teammates arms again...
[One thing you'd like to achieve]: To play an intrusment in a musical in the pit band that wasn't at school
[Your most overused phrase on aim]: "lol"
[The first feature you notice in the opposite sex]: their voice or if I don't hear their voice, eyes/hair.
[Your best physical feature]: my hands
[Think you're attractive]: According to many, I am. But I do know really. I think they were all lying to me.
[Been on stage]: Yeah.
[Been trashed or extremely intoxicated]: Oh, been high oh sugar/happiness/Jake but that doesn't count.
[Been called a tease]: Hehehe, if I answered yes would this be a bad thing?
[Best eye color]: blue, ice blue really...but blue
[Best first kiss location]: on my porch ^_^
[four beverages you drink frequently]
1. DC w/ Lime
2. Mountain Dew Code Red
3. Pepsi
4. anything diet
[four places to go in your area]
1. Mall
2. Movies
3. People's houses
4. School
[five things to do when you're bored]
1. Call Tara
2. then call anyone else
3. Chat online to get someone to do something
4. Call Tara again and beg
5. then read/write/watch a movie when all else fails
[four things that never fail to cheer you up]
1. a kiss from Hershey
2. Jumping on Nate
3. being with Tara
4. Going to party's that have no purpose ^_^
[four things you can't live without]
1. my car
2. music
3. my lisense
4. my cell phone
[seven things on your desk]
1. One computer
2. About five candles
3. More then a lot of cds
4. ooo my Hairbrush! I've found it!
5. my 12 inch Legolas...who's in an interseting position, huh..
6. One printer
7. and my watch
[Fave food(s)]: Chinese or Italian
[Fave color(s)]: Blue, dark....or Tie dye
[Fave movie(s)]: Mulan, Dead Poet's Society, Chocolat, A Series of Unfortate Events
[Fave Animal(s)]: DOG
[Fave Holiday(s)]: Christmas
[Fave T.V. Show(s)]: MASH
[Hottest Guy/Girl]: Naaaaate
[Fave band(s)]: Straylight Run, Savage Garden, Good Charlotte, Kutless, Falling Up, the Ataris
[Fave Friends]: Online: Fizzy!! or David H
Real Life: Naaaate, Tara, Jake, or Ashley
[Fave sport(s)]: Soccer, Martial Arts, Fencing, Kendo, and Field Hockey
[Are you in a relationship right now]: Yup
[Pepsi or Coke]: Pepsi.
[Beach or Snow]: Snow.
[Rainy or Sunny]: Sunny
[Square or Circle]: Circle
[Dark or Bright]: BRIGHT
DO YOU...?
[Have a best friend, if so who?]: Person who knows the most about me, Aly or Nate or Fizzy...
[Speak another language]: No hablo espanol.
[Drive]: Mhm
[Have a car]: Mhm
[Who have you known the longest right now]: Aly
[Who do you talk to online the most]: Fizzy, Nate, or Tara
[Who do you talk to on the phone most]: Tara or Meaghan
[Who do you trust the most]: Hmm, NOT Sarah or Stuart. But anyone else, yes. I'm very trusting...which is why I get hurt so easily. All well. ^_^ I'm young and stupid.
[Who listens to your problems]: Jake because he always seems to be in my car...or Nate and maybe Tara but I don't think I'm having problems right now. Yay!!
[Who do you fight with the most]: Sarah. Who else?
HAVE YOU EVER...
[cussed someone out]: No, but i've been cussed out by Sarah numbrous times.
[stayed up for 24 hours]: About three times now.
[gotten drunk?]: no
[gone a day w/out eating]: mmmhaha, no.
[talked on the phone all night:] Yes
[been in bed w/the opposite sex] And not having sex, why yes!
[smoked]: nah.
[made prank calls]: Well yeah.
[been in love]: Still am in love...but was in love but yeah...we're not getting into that whole mess.
[slept all day]: Yeah.
[killed someone]: Oh not yet just give me a few more years and reasons.
[been out of the country]: Mexico.
[told a guy/ girl you loved them]: Yes.
[if yes, did you mean it]: Yes........
[gone skinny dipping]: Nah.
[kissed someone you didn't know]: Not yet but being me and me being stupid, I'm sure that's bound to happen sometime.
[thought you were going crazy]: Been there, done that.
[threatened someone]: Well...does casterating count?
[asked out a member of the opposite sex]: well yeah
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Stolen Kindly from Tara
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"Jellicle Cats have moonlit eyes."
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
A picture Bertie Botts every Flavor Beans on my wall
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
On TV...i haven't watched TV for the past three days...umm...maybe the news?
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:
2 PM (and I got up at 1:10pm tra-la-la-la)
5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:
2 PM
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Cute without the E (acoustic) by Taking Back Sunday
7: When did you last step outside?
when i took Tara home...okay, it was the garage but still....10:50 or so
8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
Tara's Greatest journal because no one is on to talk to...or they are on and they just won't answer (cough*tara*cough)
9: What are you wearing?
MASH t-shirt, MASH pj pants...the usaul undergarments (though I am wearing Tweety Underwear, mwahaha....and I know, you just needed to know)...and my rubbarbands bracelets and my two silver necklaces that never come off
10: Did you dream last night?
Oh did i dream....First the dream was at Good Shepherd...Staring: Myself, Mother Dearest, Aaron (lives down the street and is a 5th grader at GS), Nathan (another boy...only 6th grader...or a 7th grader?), Julie G (sophomore), my dogs...and maybe a few other assorted people...
Well, it was like a scooter race and stuff...and I don't remember much.
But I do remember there being a Winnie the Pooh play staring Jessica Nehrt....and like a gang of rappers tried to take my keys away and Tara wouldn't call the police though she had all four cell phones ON HER LAP. But I think I jumped into my car and drove away...only except they through cherry bombs at me? And I went over the side of the driveway and went offroading...and then somehow the rappers got ahold of me again and tried to get my keys...and AGAIN Tara would NOT call the cops (she had four freaking cell phones on her lap...I was very fusterated in my dream)...but then I beat the cookie crums of the big rapper aaaand...I won. They left me alone after I started yelling "Rape! RAPE! HEY PEOPLE! IM GETTING RAPED! HEEELP?!"...and THEN they got arrested finally.
And then my silver saturn turned into a super subbed up...GOLD saturn that was icky...
Can I just say it was one screwed up series of events that played in my head?
11: When did you last laugh?
Yesterday probably or today. I laugh too often to keep track.
12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?:
WEll....art, posters, pictures, random stuff....awards, my family crest....a lot of stuff (im in my cpu room)
14: What do you think of this quiz?:
It's amusing.
15: What is the last film you saw?:
In theaters? Finding Neverland.
Rented? Saved!.
On TV? .......i dont remember
16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
I would buy Nate a Geo Tracker or a Mini Cooper...and then get myself plane tickets to go attack Fizzy
17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
::blink:: what doesn't anyone know about me? uhh....I've never had sex/done drugs/gotten drunk. How's that?
18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
i would go back in time and presuade Adam and Eve that the apple/snake are BAD people...so that we would be living in paradise right now and in true happiness.
19: Do you like to dance?:
No.
20: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?:
This opinion is N/A. Please try again later.
21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Elisha (pronouced Alicia) or Rosalie (grandma's name) or Meaghan or Catherine
22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
Nathan (my Naters ^_^) or Marcus or Micah
23: would you ever consider living abroad?
Nope
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Happy New Year!
Yup...another new year.
Let us recap the old year, by month.
January 2004 - Sophomore year...bball was happening, fights with Sarah...the usual
Febuary 2004 - on the 14th I gave everyone Rose's...at least to those who I cared about.
March 2004 - Spring Tour = Hell...bought mommy a beautiful charm for her bday from Disneyland, bonded with Meaghan, fought with Sarah
April 2004 - Soccer! And Drama...
May 2004 - End of the school year...didn't talk to Ash on the last day...fought with Sarah...Sophomore year was hell.
June 2004 - Started Driver's Ed with Aly..met Seth and Megan...carpooled to CHS...had a good time
July 2004 - Service Camp! With my lover boy. And my bday month. Had an AWESOME party! Naters was at a wedding though and Sarah was in VA. (damn her)
August 2004 - Got my lisense. School started....1st chair saxophone! Also horseback riding with Ash...^_^ Awesome bday party at Lindsey's and swimming in all our clothes!
September 2004 - Carpooling with Jake, tehehe fun times. Drama....
October 2004 - Getting to know Tara majorly and Corbi too ^_^ Heheh, being amused by Abby also...great times at Drama.
November 2004 - The night of the play...getting to know Gerber and Alicia better...bball starting.
December 2004 - Bball...being moved to post and loving it. Hanging out with Tara constantly...Tping with Jake...lunch with Jill, Lauren, Stephen, Ash, and Tara.
New Year's party at Nathaniel's...an awesome way to end an okay year.
To recap - Sophomore = hell
Junior year = LOVE! ^_^
I still have my Naters...I'm not SAD!! YAAAAAAAAY! I've met a wonderful person who definately isn't a backstabbing bitch. I've become closer with so many old friends...I've met new people.
It's been a good start to a new year and I'm glad I've finally let go of the past...I've grown up that's for sure. I'm more likely to defend myself now and I don't put up with crap. And people don't mess with me. I'm not shy anymore. Hehehe, I definately am way out-going now.
I will not be a push over.
I will be nice.
I will not curse.
I will stand up for what is right.
I will not cry.
I will be Mo....because being myself is the best thing I can do.
I will never comform AGAIN to another's wishes. I will NEVER give my heart again to someone so easily. I will NEVER hurt those I love.
And I will NEVER...have ill thoughts about being with Nate. I say, screw all you who say I've been tied down too long! I will not discourage what a great relationship I have. I will not give up on it until the last spark of love has gone out...and if it does go out, I will try, try with all I am, to rekindle it!
And I vow, I will make out with Nate the next time I see him!....or at least give him a passionate kiss before I met into a puddle and hide in a corner. ^_^
Those are my New Year resolutions.
Amen!
Novenber 2004 -
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