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wRamblings of a Giggling Baka |
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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Sunday, November 23, 2003 |
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Different Ramble Topic:
Up, Up, Up, There's no where to go but up from here!
Wow...so on the way home today from Blondie's I was just staring out the car window and my mind like fluttered to Nate...my heart kinda skipped and danced a bit...then I sighed happily and my eyes unfocsued and I re-played Fishing Camp '02 and just smiled...I loved that camp...Twas the one when Nate asked me out.
The paddle boat incident! Lol
The Kayake troubles! Mwahaha!
Wow...great times!
Hehehe, I remember when I next saw Nate at the next camp...He held my hand on the second day but he gave me a hug that night! Aaaww...I loved it! Wow...I felt so light-headed and free...
His hand is so big too! But it's so cute and warm...and it feels like sparks travel up my arm everytime his hand finds mine...::dreamly silly sigh::
Now I know this is a tedious subject but he's been on my mind more so then usual this weekend...Mostly cause he's away at ICTC.
I just wanna know he's all right and if he had fun and what all he did....
I trust him so much too...I'm not afraid that he'd cheat on me, just the way he smiles at me and touches me melts all those worries away...He's so gentle and sweet...I swear there is no other guy like him.
He doesn't talk about himself or just talk about one subject...he'll move with you from topic to topic and you'll get so lost in the subject that there will be an awkward silence and you just stare silently at each other...gazing into the others eyes wondering what secrets and knowledge are hidden within them...and then the conversation starts up again.
And being with him...I couldn't even desribe how I feel...I just babble random non-sense and just watch him...always watching for that smile I love. The one you don't capture on film...that sweet, love-filled smile and the eyes that match...the windows into his soul...his blue eyes clear and all his worries seem to melt away as you looks at you...and you just melt into a puddle and smile back...
Then when he lightly kisses your forehead and holds within his arms...you feel as if the world holds nothing on you! That nothing, NOTHING can ever take this feeling away from you. It's just an ever blissful feeling...your heart overflows and just snuggle closer, burying your head into his chest and listening to his heart beat...you feel so calm and ready to take on the world...Nothing can ever stand between the to you of you.
And when there is silence and you're at camp and look into the great profoundness that is the sky when its dark....you just feel so overwhelmed and when you look over at him he's just smiling with a far away look and you move closer to him, wrapping your arms around his waist so you have an anchor to hold on to as you both gaze and feel the greatness that is God's creation...so complete you feel...
Just everything about him makes you feel as if you are whole and when you think of a time when he's not there, not even as a friend, your heart shatters and then he comes to pick up all the little pieces again and puts them back together...
He...Nate makes me feel as if I have a purpose at times, cause I know if I survive through the week I'm one step closer to him....Him not being here with me has just strengthened our relationship...I know soon that there will be many more happy times with him but also...some troubling times in which we'll work through...for when the distance closes, our relationship will be truly tested and we'll know if we are truly meant to be together...
But right now...I'm just going to dwell on how we are now...far away in body but always together in spirit...brought together from God for a purpose far greater then we each know....
I love him.
I'm not too young to know what a true love is. He is my best friend whom I share a deeper passion with...we'll always be good friends, I know it!
He is mine now...forever in my heart and always in my mind.
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
8:00:00 PM
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