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Heed the words of a Psycho!
On The 01-09-05, The Baka Is Currently....
Feeling...Remoseful
Listening To...Magic by the Cars
Wearing...MASH shirt and MASH Pjs
Talking to...no one
Eating...nada
Drinking...Pepsi One
Reading...Too many books!
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Can You See Me?
Monday, March 22, 2004 |
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Gotta love surprise dinner calls...esspecially after you ate! tehehehe. Gotta love Naters.
::sigh:: So if you aren't one of those lucky bums that haven't heard...
Let me...let you read some things that have been happening lately...
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EnchantingPYSICO: Listen girl get a new topic to complain about. Do you understand that? DO NOT I repeat DO NOT get on messager and IM my mother durin' speech and complain 'bout me& russ... If I find out you do it again, I will tell mrs. Heinz. If you do not stop bein'a lil' baby girl, I will start complainin' about you and nate you hear. About how you aren't the perfect couple and what not. Do NOT make me go there. You are bein' a brat about this whole situation and completely selfish. If you would just grow up and stop thinkin' that the world revolves around you, everything/one would be soooo much better. Did you get this? You better have.
Auto response from HersheyDoGG: ACK!
Going out to dinner with Nate!
Surprise Surprise!!
TOO MUCH SURPRISE!!! AAAAAH!! MY HAIR IS WET!
EnchantingPYSICO is away at 7:37:05 PM.
EnchantingPYSICO returned at 8:07:09 PM.
HersheyDoGG: i didnt complain at all ::blink:: i didnt even get into the subject
EnchantingPYSICO: hardly believable
HersheyDoGG: believe what you want, i know what I said, I know what I did and I particularly know what i havent done
EnchantingPYSICO: good, cuz that makes one of us
HersheyDoGG: i understand
EnchantingPYSICO: I must tell you I don't apreciate you talkin' about me and russ.. I don't do it to you and nate.. so by all means DON'T YOU DARE do it to me
EnchantingPYSICO: I don't think you do
HersheyDoGG: okie
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EnchantingPYSICO: I need to ask you a question
HersheyDoGG: okies
EnchantingPYSICO: think about your answer and answer with all the truth that is within you
HersheyDoGG: ...eh...okie...
EnchantingPYSICO: were you complainin' about me about something today? And what are you tellin' this David fellow about me?
HersheyDoGG: i wasnt complaining today
EnchantingPYSICO: then what were you doin'?
HersheyDoGG: probably sulking
EnchantingPYSICO: mo, I don't need a stupid probably answer, I need a definate answer
HersheyDoGG: sulking
HersheyDoGG: i was sulking
EnchantingPYSICO: what about?
HersheyDoGG: and working on some advice David gave me
HersheyDoGG: and your mom for that matter
EnchantingPYSICO: what are you tellin' this david dude about me??!
HersheyDoGG: about how much i care for you, about how wonderful you are
EnchantingPYSICO: that's not what I'm hearin'
HersheyDoGG: ?
HersheyDoGG: who are you hearing this from
EnchantingPYSICO: that's not important
HersheyDoGG: yes it is
HersheyDoGG: cause that isn't the truth
EnchantingPYSICO: you better not be lyin' to me
HersheyDoGG: i am not
EnchantingPYSICO: becuz I dun talk about you behind your back and I dun expect you to do it to me
HersheyDoGG: i dont say anything bad about you, im not like that
EnchantingPYSICO: I expect you not to
EnchantingPYSICO: you're not?
HersheyDoGG: im not
HersheyDoGG: at all
EnchantingPYSICO: then what do you call what you're doin' to russ?
HersheyDoGG: what am I doing to Russ
EnchantingPYSICO: and russ has nothing to do w/ this so dun get mad at him
EnchantingPYSICO: nvm you dun care, dun say you do cuz you dun....
HersheyDoGG: ...well, please hold on, im confused
HersheyDoGG: where are you getting this? don't you know me better then this?
EnchantingPYSICO: mo you're not actin' like the person I know, and you're not tellin' me anything so I know the person you are
HersheyDoGG: what am i not telling you
HersheyDoGG: im telling you everything you asked!
i tell David about how much I care for you, how i dont want to lose you...how I love you. I don't say -anything- bad about you. Why would I?
You're my best friend.
EnchantingPYSICO: how should I know?! what were you 'sulking' about? huh? what are these stupid God reason!?
EnchantingPYSICO: am I?
HersheyDoGG: yes...
HersheyDoGG: you are
EnchantingPYSICO: I need to know what's goin' on w/ you
HersheyDoGG: like what? ive been as i have been for the last...few months. Nothing much has changed in that course of time
EnchantingPYSICO: I dunno why, and what the stupid 'reasons' are.... you won't tell me, What were sulkin' about ????
HersheyDoGG: because my hearts been ripped out and stomped on.
EnchantingPYSICO: by whom? what are you talkin' about? what was wrong w/ today?
HersheyDoGG: today wasn't bad, not as bad as usual.
And I would like to know, where are you getting these conclusions
EnchantingPYSICO: that's not importnat
EnchantingPYSICO: ant**
EnchantingPYSICO: you're not answerin' my questions at all, you say you tell me stuff but you dun
HersheyDoGG: it feels like -you- have stomped on my heart, that's what i am talking about
EnchantingPYSICO: how? what? I haven't done a freakin' thing!
HersheyDoGG: its okie, dont worry about it, if you are
HersheyDoGG: im...living through it
EnchantingPYSICO: no you're not... you're miserable, and you're makin' me that way, c'mon telll
HersheyDoGG: if feels like there's a wall between us, that...neither of us tells the other anything. and i just kinda go through the motions of living. I feel...rejected and unable to..be your friend at times.
EnchantingPYSICO: and I feel hurt and betrayed
HersheyDoGG: why betrayed
EnchantingPYSICO: becuz you make it sound if I am the one doin' all the hurtin'... and you over do everything, and why... why are you doin' this?
EnchantingPYSICO: you are actin' very childish
HersheyDoGG: i dun know why im doing this or why i feel the things i feel....i just do...
EnchantingPYSICO: you hurt me everytime you get mad at me for the stupidest reasons, and I dun get it
EnchantingPYSICO: BUT YOU BLAME ME! dun deny it and you I agh
HersheyDoGG: oh...im sorry...i didnt realize that
EnchantingPYSICO: are you? sorry doesn't fix a thing
HersheyDoGG: yeah i know....what do you want me to do
EnchantingPYSICO: why is it up to me? you aren't goin' to listen anywaz
HersheyDoGG: yeah i well
EnchantingPYSICO: no you dun dun you see.. you ignore what you dun wanna hear, and you complain about w/e you fear w/ russ when look at david!
HersheyDoGG: i dont talk to russ
EnchantingPYSICO: I know
EnchantingPYSICO: for some stupid ass childish reason again
HersheyDoGG: he doesnt talk to me...i cant even hold a convo with him. so yeah...
EnchantingPYSICO: cuz he's scared he's gonna offend you or something by just sayin' hi
HersheyDoGG: hmmm
HersheyDoGG: do you want me out of your life...
EnchantingPYSICO: no
EnchantingPYSICO: you are the one cuttin' me out here
HersheyDoGG: im trying not to
EnchantingPYSICO: I dun think so... you got this david, and even when I think you are happy you aren't
EnchantingPYSICO: like today
EnchantingPYSICO: what was up w/ today? what was the prob?
HersheyDoGG: i feel lonely, hurt, dejected...more or less like crap and I don't know why.
EnchantingPYSICO: okie, well, maybe everything would be better if you stopped talkin' about me (about whatever) to my mom
EnchantingPYSICO: you have your own mother ... talk to her
HersheyDoGG: okie...
EnchantingPYSICO: I'm sorry, but it hurts that you talk to her about w/e and not me
EnchantingPYSICO: I'm your friend, not her
HersheyDoGG: you're never there anymore when i need/want to talk
EnchantingPYSICO: neither are you
HersheyDoGG: im always here
EnchantingPYSICO: you are too involved w/ yourself to care about my problems
HersheyDoGG: yeah i guess i am
HersheyDoGG: how do I show that i care about you
EnchantingPYSICO: I dunno
HersheyDoGG: okies...
EnchantingPYSICO is away at 8:05:17 PM.
EnchantingPYSICO returned at 8:05:21 PM.
EnchantingPYSICO is away at 8:05:40 PM.
EnchantingPYSICO returned at 8:05:42 PM.
EnchantingPYSICO is away at 8:07:22 PM.
HersheyDoGG: I...I dont mean to be selfish...I care for you with all that I am...I dont know...how can I show this to you? I want to show how much I care, but I am not doing it the right way...maybes...im not cut out to be a friend...I dont know.
Im trying...does this count?
Auto response from EnchantingPYSICO: it's hard to be the one running away when you are the only one left that cares ( even though you are refused the knowledge of what's goin' on), so yeah
you know when to call Russ, if I'm not on. My mom might answer, cuz I'll be gettin' out of the shower, but still call then you hear lol... talk to you then!:-D
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Yeah...so...if you conclude ANYTHING from either of those conversations...HELP ME! PLEASE! I am...dying of a broken heart...I will go on but I lost a piece of me somewhere...
I don't care what you say, give me a dose of reality!
But what...I really want/need is a friend...someone to tell me it's gonna be all right...somene to comfort me and tell me it's not all my fault, just particularly...I want a friend...someone to be there in this thin time in my life.
Please?
And whatever you do...don't IM her..please...just please don't...
You have seen both sides of the act...more or less anywayz...
Now what should happen...
T3H B4K4 last Rambled @
9:41:00 PM
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